Mr. Highway's Thinking About the End

         I've decided that with or without my mothers permission I am going to dye my hair black. If she wants me to be grounded because I went to someone elses mutual, not mine, fine. But I do everything else that I want and she cant say shit about it. I'm sick of being the person she goes to to vent, but she cant just talk.. she has to get angry and yell.. Sigh.. the only place I feel comfortable is outside my house... Thats not supposed to be right... :[[

         I really miss Ashley... like.. hella bad... I need to see her right now... I was soooo close to cutting again because of not only how my mom reacts to the "mistakes" I make, but I couldn't go to Ash and talk to her about them... which makes me really really sad inside... I don't want this friendship to be pulled apart because our mothers are... moms... : / I sound so.. immature, I guess... I'm really trying to make my mom happy but all I can do is piss her off.. even when I'm as perfect as I know how to be.. Don't say "I know" when she says to do something.. Do it without complaining and an attitude.. Get all your stuff done and don't hesitate at something she says.. all the basics of my mom... But.. it still hurts.. really bad sometimes.. thats why I started cutting.. because of her.. but I don't think she knows what shes doing.. I just really wish she could see things through MY eyes for once.. not hers...
   
          ..I think I'm going to do something some people would consider drastic.. but I need to do this.. I know I do..

          I pierced my ears again... and I might be doing my eyebrow soon if I can get a piercing for it.. cause I don't have one.. >.<  My lip is officially closed up now though.. sad face.. and I don't know where my nose ring is so I have to go and find it sometime.. but.. ya I'm peircing my upper ear tonight.. and maybe a third one on one of my ears.. but not both.. :X. I'll mess around later..
   
          Michaela says Sam likes me.. which at first I didn't think was totally true.. but heh..I kinda do now.. heh :P Whats-his-face said Robert still likes me.. which I  kinda think is true but not.. entirely. And Travis does fer sure.. we all know.. >.< .. but.. anywho.. Jaden and Sam are.. haha my buddies.. I need to get pictures of them to put on facebook.. I'll miss them next year.. sniffle.. Sam is getting his car but he's leaving to U-Cast school.. not PG :[[ But i'm going to make him go to PG. He'll come live in my backyard for a while or something... xD  
      
           I've picked out the hair I want.. but I want it black.. but i might go this color too.. cause it looks really cool.. and this girl.. :]] She's very purtty. ;D

Gorgeous like I said. :]] The bangs are.. perfect for the style I've been looking for forEVER. So.. I was pretty excited when i saw this picture... and then this chicka is also a hair thing.. but shes purtty too. But not as... xDD Just kidding.... ;]]

Shes amazing too..  but thats besides the point..